Matt and I have been together, like in a relationship together for just about two years. Things are great in our relationship at this point; I am not going to lie, we have been through our share of struggles.
Marriage has been on my mind for quite a while now, and it's not like I want to get married tomorrow or anything, which he acuses me of "being like". My mom simply just wants me to find out if he wants to get married, and if so then when and how.... are we going to have a wedding or what? Like I told my mom, if he isn't willing to have a wedding, and have one day of celebration then it's not even worth me spending the rest of my life with that person. I mean that.... So I am just trying to get an answer out of him before I keep wasteing my time being miss housewife and secret wedding planner. I feel like I am hopeing for something that will never happen, and making out all these different plans and getting myself all excited for no reason because I dont think that it is a matter of when it may happen but if ever. By the way that matt acts whenever I try to talk to him he makes it seem like that I have a knife to his neck and are threatning him. He jumps to the gun and gets all irriatable and pissy, which I REALLY dont see as a good sign at all. So I mean, I feel as though things are still up in the air, and I would like to bring them back down. I need to try to talk to him again, but maybe try a different approach. I dont care, nor really want to get married REALLY soon, or have a wedding any time SOON. I would like it to be maybe Next Sept. which is over a year and a half away, almost two years. He's not excited about any of this at all, and we don't talk about us spending the rest of our lives together anymore. He kinda just assumes by him telling me that he loves me and spending every night with me is enough, well that certainly is wonderful, but it is getting old bc I was expecting for us to move a lot faster with this relationship thing. I feel like we have been stuck in the same spot for quite a long time, and I am really getting tired of just waiting around for him to make the next move, and it is a really bad sign for me when I try to talk to him about things that he just like blows up about it. I am at a loss for things to do... I am afraid to talk to him about this anymore, even though I really would like to have some closure to the topic. He said last night that he "thinks about it all the time"... and i told him that "I just wished that he would talk to me and tell me what he is thinking"
